My name is Michelle Besay, and I am a writer. Let me start by saying I was a bit nervous about writing this introduction. I mean, what do you say when you write about yourself? How much information do you give? Is there a right or wrong way to do this? Maybe I should just start from the beginning.
My nickname is High Vibe Five. Well I wanted to use something that would constantly inspire me every time I used it. Keeping vibrations high means keeping your energy right and protected. It means always staying positive and choosing to look at any situation from an angle that makes you feel good. Five is my life path number. Everyone has one. You get it by adding all the parts of your birthday together until you get one digit. Life path number 5 is associated with having a free spirit, expressing that freedom, being great writers, and inspiring others. So knowing that; knowing all of that, I choose to walk in that. I’ve always been able to approach people from all walks of life and find something that connects us. People need that, and I’m grateful to have that ability.
I was born in NY, lived in FL, and raised in GA. Here from Jamaica, my parents have always nurtured my creativity for as long as I can remember. They immersed me into a wide variety of music, resulting in me working the stage while singing Dionne Warwick’s “That’s What Friends Are For” by time I was in preschool. I wrote my first song when I was in fourth grade and started journaling in high school. I was having a hard time, as a teen, and needed an absolute outlet. Writing was freedom, and my thoughts came out in the forms of poems and songs.
At the age of nineteen I had my son. He was sent here to help me get my act together. After having him, I got serious about work and ended up, eventually, pursuing a degree in respiratory therapy. Still having a sense of balance, I was able to continue writing. In 2008 an opportunity presented itself, and I got to write and record songs regularly.
As time went on, balancing passion and responsibility got harder. Life kept happening. I had my beautiful baby girl, and, with two kids and two jobs, I couldn’t make time for those creative things anymore. When I found myself missing it, I’d turn to journaling because I yearned for the freedom and it was familiar. Yet, I couldn’t stick with it. I found myself wanting to write, but was so blocked, and so uninspired, my pages remained blank.
After years of pain, self-sabotage, and self-loathing, I’d reached my breaking point. I, literally, had a (three hour) emotional breakdown. After that day, I decided it was time for a, much needed, change. I’d lost myself, dimmed my light, hindered my power, and it was heartbreaking. I turned my lens inward and started doing some serious work on self. Therapy became an outlet for me. The more I was able to tell me truth in that safe space, the more I wanted to improve. I started meditating every day, dove deep into my spirituality, and reclaimed my freedom. With the start of writing meditations, those blocks I had started to melt away, and my creative juices were flowing again.
Through my healing and meditation, I’ve come to see that I’m purposed to help heal the world. So, coining myself the “Writer of All Things Internal”, I’ve made it my mission to create work focused on mindfulness, open mindedness, and relatability. I want to share my story, from fall to rise, so that other women may be inspired to become transparent, heal, and blaze a happy trail through their pain. I’ve just started out on this new journey as writer, but I believe that I’m being placed exactly where I need to be. I’m looking forward to connecting with and motivating others; even if it’s one person at a time.
Please take a moment to read the latest #poem from High Vibe Five When I Write…. #poem