Have you ever made a decision for your life and then a couple of weeks later you found yourself wrestling with that decision wondering if you made the right choice? We have all been here at some point and time in our lives. These past few days I found myself wrestling with a commitment that I made to myself. I made a commitment to myself that I was going to only entertain relationships that were healthy. Relationships that challenged me to be a better me and relationships that I poured into and the other party poured into me and it was a mutual understanding. I realized that if I was going to be fruitful that I had to get rid of the relationships that did not equal up to being healthy. In getting rid of relationships I had to literally tell someone that I was not going to engage myself in things that didn’t bring my body any good. In telling this person that they got real upset and told me that I was acting crazy and that I was acting stupid. It hurt me because I had a friendship with this person and I thought that we were cool and I thought that they would understand and just be happy for me.
Then God began to just speak to my heart and he reminded me of the scripture which is 1 Samuel 15:22, which says “Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the voice of the Lord? To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of the rams.” This scripture spoke volume to my heart, because I began to look up the word obey and when I looked up the word obey it meant to follow instructions to follow orders. Sacrifice meant the act of giving up something that you want in order to get or do something else. I realized in this moment if I wanted God to move on my behalf and have healthy divine relationships I had to give up the things that I knew that was not of God. I had to give up having a man just to say that I have a man because I don’t want to be lonely in order for God to send my mate. I had to give up friendships that only wanted from me and did not pour into me in order to have friendships that add value to me. I had to give up sex in order to have God to make love to my mind, body, spirit. I had to give up un-forgiveness and bitterness in order to have Gods divine peace. I had to give up being jealous and looking at the things that everyone else had in their lives in order to have Gods abundance. I had to give myself up and die to myself in order for God to love and move on my behalf. I had to give up I had to surrender everything.
In this moment of teaching God really began to pour on me and he let me know that 1 Chronicles 22:13 says “to be strong and courageous and not to be afraid to lose heart.” This scripture said to me that in making my decision that you are going to have to stand alone, you may not have support but know that because you are making a God choice and you are standing up for what is right that God is going to be with you in the midst of every decision. I know this to be true because his word says that “he will not leave us, nor will he forsake us.” God is literally holding our hands and he is holding us so tight that he literally is not letting go. Eleanor Roosevelt once said “that you gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. This is a powerful quote because it says that you have to look the enemy in the face and you have to let him know that he cannot steal your joy. You have to let him know that he cannot have your home, your children, your marriage, your finances. You have to tell him that”No weapon that is formed against you shall prosper, and that if God is for you then who can be against you.” I am realizing that too often in life we let our feeling and our emotions take over and we don’t follow our head. You see I allowed my feelings and my emotions to take over and I stayed in a relationship for ten years that didn’t bring God glory or honor but if I didn’t live off of my feelings and followed my head and knew that I wasn’t receiving Gods best for my life. So today I challenge you to get Gods best to receive Gods best for your life and not leftovers. You might be saying what is leftovers well I am reminded of Elijah and God told him that the ravens will feed him and that he drunk from the brook. Well the brook dried up and Elijah could only eat what the Ravens brought but God had to dry the brook up because he didn’t want Elijah having leftovers meaning he didn’t want him having just pieces of meat here and there he wanted him to have a full cake so he sent him on another journey. So know today God don’t want you having pieces here and pieces there but he wants to give you a full cake. He wants to give you abundance. So receive his abundance receive his goodness and his mercy and know that you are loved. One time in my life I was receiving the leftovers but now I am receiving Gods best which is the CAKE because I am worth it and so are you.
Until next time,